Freedom Union


The last time i wrote i was on my way to see Rebecca, we ended up going for Chinese which was tasty. We had some really good conversations. We dont get to hang out just us... Partially because of my addiction to her brother and partially cuz shes married. Anyway, after that we went to see Guess Who which was awesome. Seriously really good movie. so thats like 4 hours of goodness, then we, we being Rebecca, Andrew, David, Gary and I go for coffee. David drives me up the wall, and not in the good way, in the i hate the way you speak and want to hit you every time you do way. rarr. Anyway... What else to say. Easter was alright. Chocolate and such and dinner and wine... Then! Ian and i went to a movie. the movie wasnt as good as i had hoped but i was sooo happy to see him. I miss him all the time. *sigh* that brings us to yesterday. I worked an 8 hour shift, witnessed a dog dying, then went to chill with my homeboy Tristan. word. I then came home and went in the hottub. When i went to bed i had this dream. I wish i remembered more of it. But i distinctly remember driving to this building, it looked like a school, but wasnt necessarily one, then a fire alarm goes off and im on the other side of these doors on a hill, waiting. people are rushing past me and im just sitting there, my car has disappeared, im just sitting in the sunshine. I believe at this point Tristan shows up, apparently he was in the building, and we decide to make our way back to my car which is inside (maybe to get into the building area there are gates you have to go through) anyway, to get back to my car we have to basically pencil roll there. When were almost back to my car, i remember looking up towards the building and seeing in huge beautiful letters FREEDOM UNION. then Tristan sticks his hands in a dirty overflowing toilet bowl that is situated on one of the old school elementary benches. As i am walking over to him my mother knocks on my door to wake me up. i thought it was weird. and the freedom union thing really stuck with me. Anyway, Jolene called me sweety this morning which signified that she is no longer mad at me. Although this normally means that the beginning of a fued with my mother will begin. however i got ready to go to work and left. I got to do some telemarketing outside today. it was beautiful outside. i totally got some colour today. so anyway, im eating lunch on my break and Patty says, hey Jaryd, i need to talk to you. (Patty is my Manager) so im like... uh... i didnt do it. kidding. so she rolls over to me, and i mean literally in her new chair, but right up to me. shes like, how do you like my new chair, and i said i dont. she then proceeds to tell me that i am a valuable part of the company, even though i may not think it i am, and that ive really "came into my own" (wtf, why does that expression exist?) then the question drops out of her mouth... "what do you think about learning how to close?" then there are all of the reasons why it would be good for me, more hours, actually, thats pretty much it, the other thing is more responsibility. anyway, i have forgotten what i was saying.uh... so i learned how to close the store tonite. *sigh* movin up... After work i came home cuz ive been going out a lot and my family is gone. They have gone for drinks and dinner. Whatever, i made myself some dinner and when my mother walked in the door she asked me why my bedroom light was on, to which i responded with a shrug. then she screamed and i screamed, needless to say it wasnt for ice cream. i said bad things. It shouldnt matter how angry i get, i shouldnt say bad things. I have one more thing to tell you i think. so im sitting with my fam watching American Idol and i tell Jolene that she has to watch until she sees my lover. So we're sitting there, and Constantine comes onstage (heh) and i say while reaching for the TV "lover" and shes responds with, "Thats your lover? but hes white!"

ttfn, Jiggy

PS: aw wan clue san a slowt ow tu Lawin, i prod a ew beeahts!

So, my mother has done this on purpose. shes mad at me about going over to Rebeccas tonite and as such would not let me do the fucking grocery shopping yesterday, instead it had to wait for today. so now i work until 6 then i go grocery shopping and i probably wont even get to Rebeccas about 8. thus we will not have time to go out for dinner/hang out and go to the movie. i fucking hate this. its bullshit. i want to scream.

RARR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ttfn, Jaryd

ps: on a better note i get to see Andrew tonite :P

What would happen to our friendship if i went after your brother? Kidding, i wont actually :P

I had a good day yesterday. I worked a bit then watched a movie. When Harry Met Sally to be exact. Its surprising how everyone has heard of this movie, but lots havent seen it. You can teach everyone chess and i will make everyone watch the movie. it could be a new event. Something like Chess and Movie. only the movie would always be the same. Well, maybe after youve seen When Harry Met Sally, we could move onto other movies that you should have seen, just to say that youve seen it. Like Strange Brew and Anything when Marlon Brando is young and hot. heh. Anyway, last nite i went for coffee in kensington. I like going to the roasterie too by myself, i havent been down there in a long time, but its still alright. I can sit there for an hour alone and be completely content. i cant feel like that in very many places. While i was down there, i had a thursday on a thursday and put a stamp on Jeffs card, or at least someones card. Their name was Jeff though and it was the only one in there so the chances of it being your card are alright. It sorta looked like your writing. So, i made a list of things that i want to do. not tomorrow, just eventually. It was good for me. Then i decided that i was on crack. I heard something on the radio about someone coming to town on May 3rd. Apparently no one is coming to town on that day. I know because i called 2 radio stations and asked. I sent innocent people parading around their studio for me, and then i decided i was on crack. Tristan and I made a couple requests though. We sort of heard half of Resurection from Moist, and never got to hear Gigalo... bastard top 10 at 10.

I have to go get ready for work now... yay for work. its only 4 hours though. not too bad.

ttfn, Jaryd

!. This is me confused. Why do they both have to be like that? Why am i so indecisive? this sucks ass. i am sol. ill never be able to choose between them. its ridiculous! i hate it so much. do you know that indecisiveness is considered a tragic flaw? thats horrible. gah! i want to pull my hair out.

2. really really nervous about auditions...

3. 2 birthday dinners in a row... im spoiled.

4. sometimes i prefer one to the other, but then it reverses. fuck! perhaps i will do the pros and cons thing... i bet you money it would even out though.

5. i wanted to punch this girl in my english class. everyone was talking at their tables and she blurts out, "dont talk to me, i hate you faggot" what... the... hell... psycho.

ttfn, Jaryd

I think i have decided that maybe listening to Dilate as soon as i wake up is not the best idea. its a good idea, but maybe not the best. As such, i will continue to do so. I bought pants today. They are sweet pants for 2 reasons, 1: theyre worth 60 bucks and i got them for 5
2: they are 2 sizes smaller than i usually wear
I like them, they are washing right now so i can wear them tomorrow. ya for cheap pants!

I also forgot to mention another favourite part of my birthday. I forgot cuz i was really drunk. but i remember now and thats all that matters. While i was dancing, Tristan and Graham would come up to me and do the night at the roxbury thing, when Doug and Steve sandwich that random girl. it was very awesome and very unexpected. it makes me happy, even now :D

ttfn, Jiggy

it was the 19th and I was 19. coincidence? i think not!!!!!!!!


Thursday: work work work. Lauryns CAREEPY peice that she stagemanaged. well done, sufficiently creepy. After that I picked up Tristan and we went back to my house and watched movies. First: Boondock Saints, which i still have at my house and have been telling everyone about it and to go see it. Second: Strange Brew which was awesome as usual. then i put in Underworld and fell asleep... mostly, except the the "wake up" "i am awake" conversations

Friday: was my 19th birthday... Tristan and I go get our hair cut. Tristan leaves with a mullet, i leave with a fringe (the rest of the world calls this bangs.) I actually like it i think. The fringe thing took some getting used to, but its all good now. The way she styled our hair was totally 80's style. it was awesome. then i started my car and backed up, drove a few feet and heard the most dreaded sound for drivers world wide. *clunk* ya.. that was the sound of my tie rod breaking... apparently its the thing that connects the wheel to the car so that i can steer... problem. so that filled my whole after noon and by the time i got home, i was late for my own party... again. my day seemed to improve as it went along though. and it is only now that i can remember the not so good parts. (and when i read Tristans LJ) . I had a good day. it wasnt perfect, and i knew it wouldnt be, but it was still good. Masud bought me Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. It was odd because i really wanted to see it, but i dont remember ever telling him that. That made me happy anyway, and its amazing. I got some really good quotes from it. I also remember King of the dance Hall... i need that song. by beanie man. i also need galvonize by the beastie boys, i think... cant quite remember, but everytime i see Masud, he always mentions it. after the bar... i was so tired. i dont really remember doing much except passing Tristan a blanket. OH! and i remember walking because i felt like i was going to vomit! and thank you for buying me munchies! that was fun. i do remember that i wanted to go walking with you again. i dont remember why we didnt. And thank you for watching me so closely that nite. I did notice and i apprectiate it :)

Saturday: had to wake up to go get my baby from the shop. then Tristan and i went to McRomance (you must remember that i just watched eternal sunshine, so i will be making random quotes here and there). We played with out food and then went to A&B sound. I wanted an Amanda Marshall Cd and ive decided that the stars do not want me to have one. last time i went they were closed. and this time they had nothing. i mean not one cd. they had the little divider with her name on it, but no cd. *sigh* but i had already picked up a few other ones. in order of my hand picking them up.

1. The best of The Temptations: Volume One, the 60's
2. The best of Steppenwolf
3. the Mamas and the Papas: California Dreamin'
4. Ani DiFranco: Dilate

yes, now i have purchased my first Ani... its soo good. i heart it.

We then purchased probably our third slurpee of the weekend, and went to Tristans. I dont remember what we watched, but i found it interesting. It was about the cloth that they may or may not have put over Jesus' body. cool stuff. Then i cut Tristans Mullet off. it was good times. he let me go near his hair with scizzors. thats trust. and it looks good, so get over yourself :P

Then i went home (it was at this point i watched eternal sunshine actually) made dinner, and then left to go for coffee with Rebecca and Co. I then called Andrew a Jackass and changed seats. then Gary came back and sat on me. i just thought that was funny. I dont understand. I think if i really wanted to i could, but i dunno. its just lame and i dont have time for it. ill just continue flirting. its fun.

Sunday: Gary, Rebecca and I went out for breakfast. Andrew was made that we didnt invite him, but we thought he was sleeping. And if anyone has the tricks its him. gararr. moving on. i went to work at 2... didnt really do much. then Robyn, Jessica (one of the newbies) and I went out for din din. that was alright.

I think that it is. besides the other person i play games with. why does it have to be a freaking game all the time. GAME OVER! gararr.

the end, Happy Birthday to me. Jeff says that next year i will be going into my 3 decade... *sigh/cry*

ttfn, Jiggy

This is just for my references.

Tristan
Robyn ?
Rebecca
Andrew
Gary
Jeff
Billiam
Chels?
Chris
Darcie
Dave
Dustin
Jay
Jer
Kenny?
Kristy
Matt
Eric?
Masud
Terri?
Mike?
Jeff?
Katy?
Kels?
Patricia
Penis?
Lonny


hmm... potentially a problem...

two tylenols and a beer later...


I still have a bit of a head ache. its cause is partially the weather and partially that i havent been eating properly lately. sometimes i dont eat at all, and then other days i binge, its icky. and i havent been drinking enough whatah... not really sure why i spelt it that way.

i got a birthday rhyme today!


>Birthdays are like kit kats
>they both give you a break
>no more birthday pink belly pats
>'cause those i really hate
>HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
> Masud

and im going to stop reading into that one thing . it is mere coincidence. the end.

PLEASE BE THE END!

ttfn, J(must avoid the urge to write Jizzle Nizzle!!)iggy

PS: you totally complained more than i did. its kinda hard to complain to you, when ya know, your life has been so very difficult : P

*sigh*



I guess it was a good thing that my "plans" got cancelled last nite. Otherwise i would have had to give up the opportunity for coffee and flirting. What is the attraction between a woman and a sick man? Why is it that we automatically feel we have take care of them? Its an instinct. A man coughs, we go get him a glass of water. The sick man falls asleep with his glasses on we take them off. Why? I know i cant help it. its not just me though. no no. I also find it interesting that i saw 2 utterly horrible movies last nite, but all i remember is the company. well, i do remember the movies, but the 4 hours were not tedious. Im beginning to think that i could be in the most crappiest situation, but would think nothing of it if he were there. this is bad. this is bad in the best way possible, but still, i dont like it. and my horoscope fits this perfectly. therefore it must be noted.

After weeks of thinking this thing over, you're absolutely ready to have that sit-down chat with someone -- the one you've been trying to put off indefinitely, whether or not you realize it

acuracy... gross.

i dont know how to make the indent stop. so uh... it shall remain.

i think that it anyway....... i have 4 auditions coming up though... must get working on that.

ttfn, Jiggy / Jizzle Nizzle... i know, its horrible : )

isnt it funny how you can have 2 contrasting posts? none of you will understand what i mean, but it has to be a good thing thats its got both sides mixed into it. im so 2 sided. it doesnt bother me as much as it used to. the fact that i can love and hate someone at the same time for the same reason. it works for me and thats all that matters. this just works.

Million Dollar Baby was amazing. i couldnt stop thinking how amazing it would be to have to opportunity to explore such characters. one can only hope. and while im hoping, can someone please kick me in the ass... i need to pick my monologues/book audition dates/stop procrastinating... grr. there are socks at my work that say grr. i want them. they fit. ya know, one size fits all. The movie was so good it makes me want to vomit. im not sure in what way, but i still feel sick.

ttfn, Jaryd

PS: im tired of hiding when im upset you should know that i am. ive been really passive aggressive lately, pretending like things arent bothering me and evading confrontation, fuck it, im bothered.
1. im upset that you cancelled on me this weekend. im tired of trying to figure everything out for things to work. especially when it seems like its going to work, then something else just pops up. ya know, both of you forgot you had a party to go to? we'll fix it when you have the time.
2. im mad at myself for always using you as a crutch. ive gotten to comfortable with the fact that you will always be there and that makes me vulnerable because one day, you will not be there and i will have left myself wide open for the biggest hit ive ever experianced. I hate feeling vulnerable and im sorry for treating you like that.

i guess im not done. i ruined my lack of cigarette smoking yesterday by adding 5 on today. 1 yesterday, 6 today. on the way to the store i kept telling myself that i do not need to buy a pack of smokes. i feel fine. i dont even feel like i need one, but what did i do? oh ya thats right, bought a pack of smokes. go me and my lack of will power.

Also, in light of certain events of the evening ive decided this, when someone asks me "wheres your boyfriend?" i will respond with either, "im a lesbian" or "in the oven".

the end.

Weird thing. Last nite, i won solitaire on the first try. Then tonite, i was expecting to have to play a few rounds before winning. but no no. i won on the first try. Tristan... whats the probability of that? winning 2 games in a row.... crazy. Its totally a sign. of what, i do not know.

I have officially given up. it sucks. who was i kidding?

So its 3 for 3. Its nice of them and i know theres nothing they could do about it. It would still be nice. Its inevitable anyway. Who knows whats gonna happen. No one really knows when their life is going to change, it just does. I'll deal with it then. I will also deal with the tears.

ttfn, Jiggy : )

SO!

1. Jaclyn. I said outloud today that i hate my job. i said it in the store, with customers present. I dont hate it all the time. Mostly just this week. mmhmm. I walked in a couple days ago and my Asst Manager was all frazzled and i was like whats going on, and shes like "nothing, we just work in a shit hole." mmhm. and then she said that the next person that walked through the dor she was going to jam a hanger up her nose. and then the next person who walked in turned out to be there for an interview. i found it to be extrememly amusing, but then the girl thought we were laughing at her. oh well.

2. I saw Bigger than Jesus tonite. it was soooo lovely! SO GOOD! GO AND SEE IT THIS WEEKEND! it was evening 2 of my theatre 3 week. ya.

3. Do you ever get tired of people complaining that theyre tired. it drives me up the wall. not that i dont do it. (by the way, im tired :P ) This girl came to work today, and an hour into her shift said that her feet hurt. i didnt know what i to do. youve been here for an hour, ive been here for 5. i decided to just blink and carry on. crazyism.

4. I have audition info from 3 out of 4 post secondary establishments

5. I have been called to do another job for the university medical skills people again. i will be playing a 19 year old. *sigh* that is how old i will be anyway. 19 is such an ugly number. I have always thought so. i dont even know why.

ttfn, Jaryd