The music was so loud we talked with our eyes...

Updates... wow its been a while...

Friday: a sudden change in plans occured when i got a phone call to meet up with a friend. I was nervous, obviously, but all was good once we got the first hello over with. That was a good nite... (insert sigh here)

Saturday: Lest just say I wasnt in the mood to do this all over again that nite. I just woke up from sleeping on a rug... in the middle of a strange empty apartment. None the less i got ready to go to the party for me. I knew i would be late to my own party. I just knew it. Im never on time, for anything, well mostly anything. It was a good nite over all. The cloud of ass did come along, but i just laugh about it now. Good times overall, except when i wanted to sleep and then Tristan and Dham stripped for me... **shudder** ;)

Sunday: Supposed to go out with Ali, then he had to work. It was during this phone call that i realized how little time i can devote to a relationship. It kinda upset me when he asked me if he could see me during the week. I just dont have the time... I wish i did because I want to see him, but i cant. Priorities... He sounded so sad when i said i couldnt, he was like, "will i see you next weekend?" in a, am i ever gonna see you, kinda tone... That made me sad...
Then i got into a huge fight about Chris and how Jolene doesnt think i should see him and blah blah blah... I was like, i will make my own decision about him. I think that that is civil and resonable. Fuck.
Then i went out to dinner and a movie with Chris. It was ok, i dont really like his girlfriend... i dont get good vibes of of her. Oh well...

Lets just assume monday was a monday, so i can go to bed... and so can you!

ttfn, Jaryd

PS, i got another dozen roses today... thats 2 dozen in the past 4 days... that makes me very very happy. :D

Tonite I shed a tear. One beautiful tear rolled down my cheek as I sat in front of a brilliant psycho. God it was amazing. Fucking amazing. Im still buzzing over it. I love this feeling after you see great theatre and you cant stop talking about it. It makes me hope that someday I will be able to have that affect on people. There was this Ushering lady there tonite, and she told me that she didnt like the sodomy part. And I was like, well duh, you arent supposed to like something like that. But I hadnt seen the performance yet so I didnt really understand. So when it was over I was pissed off. I wanted to scream, YOU DIDNT GET THE WHOLE POINT OF THE PLAY! YOURE STUPID! GO BE "CULTURED" ELSEWHERE!!!!! That was the point. OF COURSE it wasnt "enjoyable" ITS NOT SUPPOSED TO BE. Gah!!!!! Stupid people... The whole play leads up to that moment. There would be no play if he wasnt raped! Jesus, im so pissed. I feel like she needed someone to walk acrossed the stage with a sign reading "THIS IS THE POINT, PAY ATTENTION!!" Stupid people piss me off...

It was truly magnificent though. It was called Provenance. Ronnie Burkett is a genius. A flaming homosexual psychotic genius. That is how he shall be known to me. God, im still in awe...


Goodnite Everyone...

Party, Saturday nite, @ Lil Dustins...

ttfn, Jaryd

Ok, so the past couple of days have been quite stressful. BUT, 2 things happened to me this evening that surpass feelings of happiness.

1) I said something that apparently was quite insightful. Well, Jeff thinks so and thats all that matters.

"How many times do we have to watch other peoples movie endings, before we get to see our own?"

oh ya, thats right. boo freeking ya. That thought shall be expanded upon at a later date...

2) Big Dustin called me about 20 minutes ago and told me to listen... I got to hear one of my favourite songs almost live. It was so fucking awesome. Im so happy he thought of me and then called me so i could hear it. YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ttfn, Jaryd

like a kid in a candy store, but you aint never seen one like this....


So i went down south today to get some stuff with Renee and we ended up stopping at the CO - OP on southland drive and MacLeod... Well, i walked in there and it is so freeking big and pretty. I have never walked into a store like this. Everything is perfectly placed on the shelves and they are actually stocked. It was crazy. But not as crazy as the next thing. We go to the cash register to pay, but theres no one there. Its automatic. Basically instead of talking to a snotty cashier, you talk to an extremely pleasant computer... You push a button, then scan every item yourself... Now Im thinking what the fuck is goin on... This is our future. Why the hell would you hire staff to supervise a customer to scan their fucking groceries? What is their purpose? I thought it was to scan shit to make my life easier. BUT APPARENTLY NOT. instead i had to push all the buttons to make it work. Pfft. Its not my job to push its buttons and scan my own groceries. This is an outrage!!!! One day, youre gonna be able to walk out of the store, through a little scanner that can tell what you want to purchase and it will just withdraw the money from a little computer chip under our skin. I THINK NOT...

Anyway, i didnt use my script in rehearsal today which IS GOOD. Its quite scary letting it go... total comfort...

I went out for coffee with my brother today. It was good. I let out some of my anger towards him and he understood. I understood a couple years ago why he left and he understands that he abandoned me. So we're sort of at an understanding right now. It makes me happy that he's missed me and that he wanted to take me with him (even though i wouldnt have left). Overall im happy. I think. no im still angry. But he did promise me today. So that is a good sign. I swear if i have to do it all over again theres no point. All i have is his word. Everybody deserves a second chance.

im not done, but i have to go read a journal...

ttfn, Jaryd

I am being selfish. Selfish in the sense that I dont want someone to leave. I wish to sabatoge them somehow, so that they will have to stay a while longer. Just a little while. I want them to go and be successful, but why can't they stay? It always feel like I had soo much time to do everything and say whatever, and now im running out of it, scrounging around for bits a peices. Hoping and praying that the day won't come. The day when you have to leave... This is the part I hate. Saying goodbye. Sometimes I wonder if its even worth it at all. If i would rather just not have said hello.

the evidence has almost subsided.... :D

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Man, this makes me happy... I so happy. I had an awesome couple of nites... AND i didnt even realize i could pull out the "naughty fish" nickname again. Man... All i can do is look back and smile...

Black Eyed Peas - Hey Mama


(la la la la la)
Hey mama, this that sh*t that make you move, mama
Get on the floor and move your booty moma
We the blast masters blastin' up the jamma
(REEEEEEEWIIIIIIND)
Cutie cutie, make sure you move your booty
Shake that thing like we in the city of sin, and
Hey shorty, I know you wanna party
the way your body look realli make me feel nauuughty
Cutie cutie, make sure you move your booty
Shake that thing like we in the city of sin, and
Hey shorty, I know you wanna party
the way your body look realli make me feel nauuughty

I got a naughty naughty style and a naughty naughty crew
But everything I do, I do just for you
Im a little bit of Or, and a bigger bit of Nu
The true n*ggers know that the peas come thru
We never cease(NOO), we never die no we never disease(NOO)
We multiply like we mathamatice
Then we drop bombs like we in the middle east
(The bomb bombas, the base move dramas)
Naw y'all knaw, who we are
y'all knaw, we the stars
Steady rockin' on y'alls boulevards
And, lookin' hot without bodygaurds
(I do) what I can
(Y'all come thru)will.i.am
And still I stand, with still mic in hand
(So come on mama, dance to the druma)

Hey mama, this that sh*t that make you groove, mama
(hey)get on the floor and move your booty mama
(yaw)we the blast mastas blastin' up the jamma
(hey)so shake your bambama, come on now mama
Hey mama, this that sh*t that make you groove, mama
(hey)get on the floor and move your booty mama
(yaw)we the blast mastas blastin' up the jamma
(la la la la la)

We the big town stumpas, and and big sound pumpas
The beat bump bumpas in your trunk trunkas
The girlies in the club with the big plump plumpas
And when I'm makin' love, my hip hump humps
It never quits(NOOOO) we need to carry 9mm clips(NOOOO)
Dont wanna squize trigger, just wanna squize t*ts
(lubaluba)cause we the show stoppas
And the chief rockas, number one chief rockas
Naw y'all knaw, who we are
y'all knaw, we the stars
Steady rockin' on y'alls boulevards
How we rockin' it girl, without body guards
Now she be, its dirty, from the crew
BET, come and take heed, as we take the lead
(so come on bubba, dance to the druma)

Hey mama, this that sh*t that make you groove, mama
(yaw)get on the floor and move your booty mama
(wuh)we the blast mastas blastin' up the jamma
(NAWWWW, NAWWW)
Cutie cutie, make sure you move your booty
Shake that thing like we in the city of sin, and
Hey shorty, I know you wanna party
the way your body look realli make me feel nauuughty

But the race is not, for the swiss
But who really can, take control of it
And tippa irie and the black eyed peas will be thhhheeerre
til infiniti, til infiniti, til infiniti, til infiniti
Tippa is ouuuuuut

Nosa dima shock, nosa dima ting
everytime you sit there i hear, bling bling
O wata ting, hear blacka sing
grinding, and winding
and the madda be moving in a perfect timing
and we dance and dance to the end of the thing
and we're really to nice, it finga akin
like rice and peas and chicken and bling

Hey mama, this that sh*t that make you groove, mama
(hey)get on the floor and move your booty mama
(yaw)we the blast mastas blastin' up the jamma
(hey)so shake your bambama, come on now mama
Hey mama, this that sh*t that make you groove, mama
(hey)get on the floor and move your booty mama
(yaw)we the blast mastas blastin' up the jamma
(la la la la la [fade])

This song shall go down in history. Well the history of me. Something I shall always remember. That being said, Holy shit, last nite was fucking awesome. Besides the fact that I cant go to Metallica. That really sucks. SOOOOOOOOO MUCH.

Guess what. I can tick off one of the boxes on my "Things i have to do before I die" list... Fuckin' right doggy!!!

Man, I dont really have much to say lately. Well nothing that is relevant or interesting in any way. Meh.

ttfn, Jaryd

happy birthday to me... and by that i mean, its over...

Well, i had a good day.

Metallica
Yuk yuks
Jimmy's (a couple drinks were bought(en) for me, yay!)
everyone at rehearsal singing happy birthday to me

AND IT RAINED...

ahh... good times...

Kels, sorry I didnt call you... Tristan, thank you for getting me what i wanted. Renee, i hate that you make me cry...

Well, im goin ta bed...

ttfn, Jaryd

Jiggy status... SUPERIFICALLY JIGGY!!!!!!!!! :D

an hour and a half...

too bad it couldnt be happy in this "house" filled with the anger of the master psychotic bitch... Fuck I loathe her...

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Section 1: The Sun In The Solar Return Chart

Sun Aspects Pluto

The nature of a planet aspecting the Sun in the solar return chart and the aspect between them color the interpretation of both planets. Pluto aspects to the Sun (which usually last for a number of consecutive years) indicate an increased awareness of power. Awareness can come through conflicts and struggle with yourself or others, but it is the awareness that is most significant. How people get, maintain and use power for personal goals or for the control of others is more important than the struggle itself. It is the awareness which gives you a greater ability to control your own life. Power usage in confrontations and everyday situations will become more obvious, but even subtle shifts in power will be evident to you as you learn to recognize psychological motivations and manipulations. For some individuals this is a time to study psychology; however, many will notice examples of obsessive, compulsive, phobic, or manipulative behaviors in themselves or others regardless of their educational background. Unconscious needs are intensified and life becomes more complicated. Ambition and self-control are the more positive manifestations. Learning to deal with life on a deeper level is the hallmark of the Plutonian consciousness. Find out more with your full-length report...

Sun Aspects Mars

Mars symbolizes the energy necessary for successful accomplishments. When Mars aspects the Sun, it is a good time to work on a project that requires a great deal of energy to complete. Success can come in the form of personal or professional achievement, or with defense. Relationships tend to be competitive, and you need to balance self-centered drives with the needs of others. Learning to deal with aggression, conflict, and anger in an effective rather than detrimental way can enable the individual to handle negative situations positively. Less spiritual themes involve destructive or self-destructive urges. Prolonged anger creates blockages which waste energy in a cycle of negative emotions that have no real purpose or goal. It is better to direct efforts into positive endeavors. Find out more with your full-length report...

Section 2: Mercury In The Solar Return Chart

Mercury Aspects Saturn

Saturn aspecting Mercury suggests a more serious and structured perception of reality. Life is organized in such a way that decisions and changes have serious consequences. Choices may be studied in depth before decisions are made. For some, there will be no good and clear choice. Dilemma situations can plague the Mercury-Saturn combination. It is likely that at least one major decision will be made during the year. Sometimes this decision is made under stress and usually it involves great responsibility. For these reasons, the individual tends to be conservative. He or she is looking for changes that produce greater stability, not chaos.

Ive given up on homework... I dont care. Too much to think about, too much to write. I need to sleep.

Things I want to know.

1. Why did you leave me?
2. Was it hard?
3. Why didn't you help me?
4. Why has it been so long?
5. Do you still love me?
6. Did you love me?
7. Did you miss me?
8. Did I miss you?
9. What do you want to do?
10. Can we start over?
11. Can we go back?
12. Do I want to go back?
13. Do I want to start over?
14. Do you want to start over?
15. Will the time disappear?
16. Can I let you do this?
17. Why did you leave me?
18. Why did you leave me?
19. Why did you leave me?
20. Why did you leave me?
21. Why did you leave me?
22. Why did you leave me?

Thats all I want to know... nothing else matters.


good nite...

Jaryd

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In a survival situation, you:	Run like hell
Your hidden talent is:	A beautiful mind
Your gift is:	Genius
In groups, you:	Perfer to act as security
Your best quality is:	Your compassion
Your weakness is:	Your overbearing nature
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Weirdest weekend ever.

Friday:

1. It rained a little
2. went to a Gay sex store, with Tristan. That was funny
3. It rained a lot. I pulled over into the McD's parking lot and walked around in the rain singing Josh Groban...
4. Got picked by a guy who told me "you cant go home! Not with an ass like that, Giddy Up." (that made me sad.)

Saturday

1. I bought my grad dress... Its nothing like what I thought I wanted. But i really really like it.
2. My last shift at work.
3. Big Dustins party... that was just weird
4. I realized that if i dont say something I could regret it forever. If i have the chance now, i should take it, and I would never want to not be able to say it when we both had the opportunity to hear it.
5. I went over to little Dustins house... That was quite fun. It felt weird. Just me and him talking for two hours. nice, but weird.


Sunday

1. I went to the Circus.
2. Jolene is psychotic
3. I talked to my brother
4. The years cant just melt away

So that was my fucked up weekend. Very odd, I must say. It wasnt completely unenjoyable, actually i had some fun, weird fun, but fun.

Ttfn, Jaryd

For about a week I've been having these shivers. Not because I am cold, they just seem to happen. Sometimes they even escalate into sharp pains in my stomach. I kinda wish they would go away. But I would rather I knew why. Perhaps I will have this completly enlightened moment. That would be freaking cool. Then it would go away and I would continue to ask dumb questions. It always happens when i dont want it to. Mind you i never really want it to. But ill be sitting in class, minding my own business, when, BOOM! Like a wave of energy, it comes over me. I dont know what "it" is, hence why i continue saying "it". At any rate, thats all I really have to say.

ttfn, Jaryd

You are Form 1, Goddess: The Creator.

"And The Goddess planted the acorn of life.
She cried a single tear and shed a single drop
of blood upon the earth where she buried it.
From her blood and tear, the acorn grew into
the world."

Some examples of the Goddess Form are Gaia (Greek),
Jehova (Christian), and Brahma (Indian).
The Goddess is associated with the concept of
creation, the number 1, and the element of
earth.
Her sign is the dawn sun.

As a member of Form 1, you are a charismatic
individual and people are drawn to you.
Although sometimes you may seem emotionally
distant, you are deeply in tune with other
people's feelings and have tremendous empathy.
Sometimes you have a tendency to neglect your
own self. Goddesses are the best friends to
have because they're always willing to help.


Which Mythological Form Are You?
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Sorry about all my bio homework. Heh, homowork. which is what i just typed them deleted. Speaking of homo, I must go to that gay store. Which is what its new name shall be. That should be interesting. Onto other things...


I wrote something today. It made me happy. Hopefully it gets read. Normally i wouldnt have written anything like it. But it had to be done. For sanity sake. Can you imagine if i didnt edit this thing. Oh wait. Nm, you can. Cuz sometimes i give up completely on my grammer. bahah.

Renee looked at an apartment today, im proud of her. And happy for her, and jealous... bah.

Not really much to say. Im frustrated. AND tired... man am i tired...

Sorry its not a very interesting entry. WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YESTERDAY IT RAINED! granted it rained, then sleeted, then snowed then hailed, BUT IT RAINED! and for those few moments i was truly happy. I cried. Thats right i cried in the rain. Blah blah blah, im so emo. Right. I would like rain for my birthday. Ok, so everyone stop asking me what i want, and just make it rain... I only want one other thing. But I will be happy with just rain.




Remember when it rained?

Part A

A and I
1. Insulin effects the amount of glucose taken into the muscle cells by making the glucose permable to muscles cell memebranes.
2. The control in the experiment is the amount of glucose given to each patient. Its function is to show how much glucose is absorbed into their blood streams at any given time.
3. When insulin is produced in the body, blood glucose levels rise.

Ext
1. Some symptoms that might occur in people who are lacking insulin may be low energy levels because if no glucose is being absorbed, then cellular respiration cannot happen. Also, their urine will contain high levels of glucose because it is not being absorbed.
3. Someone who has Diabetes mellitus may have high levels of acetone in there system. Therefore their urine would be acidic.

Part B

Procedure (attached)

A and I

1. Homeostasis is the process that a body has so that internally everything is normal no matter what is happening externally.
2. In a negitive feedback loop the response acts againsts the stimulus so that an over response is not produced.
3. All of the feedback loops are negitive.
4. Without a negitive feedback loop the body would not take in new resources and expel old ones to maintain homeostasis.

Ext

1. (attached)

2. A positive feedback loop comes into affect if a change occurs in the body. The response is to change that variable even more in the same direction. The result is a continuing spiral of change.

General Adaptation Syndrome

Short or long term attempt to maintain a state of homeostasis

The body reacts to stresses by going through 3 stages:

Alarm reaction (fight or Flight)
activates resources to deal with the stress

Resistance
if the stress is large enough, homeostasis is disturbed

Exhaustion
long term homestasis disruptions results in a weakened immune system
General Adaptation Syndrome (GAS):

so its been less than a week... Here i am. My parents are being civil with me and seem to understand that I am almost an adult (even though i rarely act like one). Its seems good. Im going to do some volunteering tomorrow. Then im going the meet Anthony's Grandfather (YAY) for dinner. Im quite excited. Maybe its because I dont have grandparents to have my friends meet. Meh, I have an adopted Grandpa... GP! And Em's grandpa makes awesome sandwiches... like whoa.

A conversation has inspired me to make a list or two. Not for your use. But more for mine, so that i know. Its not really important. But i want to, just so i can say, on this day i liked _____. ya.

1. The Wizard of Oz
2. Dirty Dancing (I loathe the remake)
3. Pretty Woman
4. The Fifth Element
5. Ever After

1. 4am
2. Remember When It Rained
3. Breathe
4. I'll Catch You
5. Baby got Back

That being said...
I went to Okotoks last nite with Tristan. I needed to get out. It was rather pointless, but it definatly had meaning. If that makes sense. For a more detailed description, feel free to go to losers live journal. Traitor. :)

ttfn, Jaryd