I am being selfish. Selfish in the sense that I dont want someone to leave. I wish to sabatoge them somehow, so that they will have to stay a while longer. Just a little while. I want them to go and be successful, but why can't they stay? It always feel like I had soo much time to do everything and say whatever, and now im running out of it, scrounging around for bits a peices. Hoping and praying that the day won't come. The day when you have to leave... This is the part I hate. Saying goodbye. Sometimes I wonder if its even worth it at all. If i would rather just not have said hello.