i cant hear myself scream

i had a very upsetting day. probably one of the worst ive had in a while. and the more i think about it the more hurt i am. for some reason, i feel like i cant talk about it. like im not allowed. maybe im just trying to talk to the wrong person. maybe the people that i want to inquire never will and i should just accept that. i think its pretty lame though. and now i feel like i cant even write here because if i say something then it will only be taken offensively or that i dont appreciate any of my friends. im going back to putting a smile on my face and nodding in agreement but not responding verbally because its some form of inconvience when i speak. i wish that things worked in an even manner and that i didnt keep deleting what i want to write.

the play was magic though.

ttfn, Jaryd