Someone needs to tell me to use my words. I dont seem to be expressing myself lately. Well, ive been expressing myself, but not in a civilized manner, i havent been speaking. I keep thinking that if i dont talk about how im feeling or the future then nothing will happen and everything will stay the same. The only problem is that when i do that, i dont live in the moment. I live in the moments we anticipate. Thats why i dont want to talk about it. I always end up missing people before theyre gone and thus i cry before i have to. we should talk about it, im sure you have doubts and i have my own... we'll either set them in cement walls, or destroy them. i hate talking sometimes, cant we just pretend? no...? fine.



ttfn, Jaryd