do you know what just occured to me as i skimmed over this general time a year ago. Somewhere there is a disposable camera with pictures of someone wrapped in saran wrap. where the hell is that camera?!

Also, it is becoming more and more apparent to me how much things can change over a year. almost to opposite ends. And the worst part is that im not that sad about it. Thats horrible. Or is it? Perhaps its just the way things are meant to be. But it still doesnt seem right. It doesnt seem either, it just is and im not totally sold on the fact that its over. I dont think its over. But theres no sign of it still happening. So what else can i conclude except that its over? or paused indefinatley? One things for sure, im not sitting around waiting like i used to be and i only really think about it when someone else mentions it or when i review this thing. Im impartial to it. It feels weird, but not abnormal. i dont know how to explain it. Ive stopped missing him. i guess im starting to accept the fact that im not gonna have the same friends forever.

ttfn, Jaryd